||[07 Oct 2004|08:15pm]
my heart is on the ground
and im just watching you
pass as you step all over
it without a care in the world
[im just another broken heart soaked in fear of rejection]
So sick of you
like im sick of thinking about you
you dont understand me and i wish you did
..i thought you were better then him but you
were exactly like him..in every way exactly.
so im finally seeing you for what you really are
So you ask what am i anotehr crush?well its
so hard too explain i had a childish crush
on others.but with you i felt something real.
But maybe i was just so numb i was looking
for a good feeling like .. you
your another guy
with no meaning and just like him..
why cant you be like you use too be
.. so great.
</3 still broken as usual
||[01 Oct 2004|11:30pm]
i was inspired by speed too write these two things.
Im in the car sitting
staring at the horizon
thats just a hint too me
that im in the wrong place.
So now im running too make it
right.Ive got too be with you
tonight staring in your eyes
and falling hard.
Street lights glem throughout these
empty streets.so pull all the stars
out of the sky tonight..because its
just not right too have a stary night
without you here.
||[30 Sep 2004|09:52pm]
seems that im the one
thats gunna lose this time
cayse everyones thoughts
and words are killing me.
im spinning in circles in this
place and i lost grip of everything
it seems every blink i take i end up
the wrong page of life.
youve got this way of saying the right
words at the right time and keeping me
on th edge of og my seat with a smile.
||[27 Sep 2004|09:47pm]
my heart is trembeling in the palm of ur hand
and you seem too care as much as the last
mistake you made.so tell me are u holding on
or are you going too let me fall.
But in this world of despair
im shedding these bloodstained tears
that lead too the path of your answer
but there must be a mistake. i took
the path and it lead too me a great fall.
|2nd time lol
||[21 Sep 2004|09:06pm]
im laying in the middle the street
with the rain pouring down, as each
rain drop falls a tear falls from these
prisms called my eyes..why is it that i
cant find a reason for these tears i cry.
maybe i should ask you for an answer cause
you would know.
the stars are falling out of the sky.all my
dreams never came true and my hopes are
crushed.So how about that kiss under the starless
Tell me its okay too be imperfect.
Because with you im walking on eggshells.
I cant stand the way you want me too be like
everyone else.But guess what i can only be me.
So Get the perfect image of me out of head.Cause
i'll never be perfect.
Cut my heart open and all the black
ink will pour out from my heart from
all the times i wrote your name on my heart.
But just do me a favor and twist the knife once
its in my heart so then just too be sure
your name doesnt belong there anymore.<3
||[19 Sep 2004|01:03pm]
heyy well i just felt like creating a journal i could write in like all my songs and poems well today i wrote two new ones soo here we go::
These tears drop from my eyes
And i just cant understand where
I went wrong.i feel like im gasping
for air and its cut off from my lungs.
So what am i suppose too do now.
im always taking it a step too far and
a word too many.But i cant explain it too
anyone this bad feeling im getting
cause you have a mouth and no brian
so go ahead and continue what you were
saying too your friends about me or what
was going through that empty shell of ur head.